When People are Big, and God is Small.

When people ask how I am doing its hard to answer. I don't know how I am doing. Will I survive? sure. Do I love what I am going through? no. Am I trying to learn as much as I can so I do not waste this hurt? absolutely.

Because I am trying to not waste this hurt, today I am starting a new book. A book recommended to me by someone who I love and respect. The book is titled 'When People are Big, and God is Small'. I can see how my fear of people has lead to me acting/not acting a certain way. I am not sure if this book will help, but right now I am trying anything to make this hurt/pain go away. I know this book, no matter how magical, will make my pain go away. But, if I can learn from this, and make the pain worth it. That will help.

I hate not talking to the one person and only person I want to.